There’s a Me (Trans Boy)

There’s a Me that no one sees

I’m hiding every day.

I’m not how I’m supposed to be

it doesn’t feel Okay.

There’s a me that no one sees

I don’t know what to do

like feeling that you have to sneeze

and never say Ah-Choo.

There’s a me that no one sees

I’m told I am a “She.”

the girl they say I’m s’posed to be

Feels much more like a “He.”

There’s a Me that no one sees

I like to wear boy stuff.

Dig in dirt and skin my knees

and show them that I’m tough.

There’s a Me that no one sees

I don’t like to wear a dress.

I’d rather wear a shirt and jeans

and leave my hair a mess.

There’s a me that no one sees

my secret is my own.

A tiny boat on shoreless seas

I feel so all alone.

There’s a Me that no one sees

I’d like someone to know.

Someone who I won’t displease

But I’m not sure who to show.

There’s a me that no one sees

I’m afraid my friends will frown.

Maybe make fun of me and tease

and push me on the ground.

There’s a me that no one sees

my parents saw me cry.

I could say I had a strange disease

but I didn’t want to lie.

There’s a Me that no one sees

My parents love the same.

I told them how it was for me

and then we changed my name.

There was a Me that no one sees

Who now is seen all-day

like swinging on the high trapeze

and ending up Okay.

There’s a Me for All to see

Not hiding anymore.

It’s like I found a magic key

to open up the door.

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Genivieve is a Transgender Artist living in Santa Barbara California.

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