It’s a win, but I understand your feelings. If you pass and are stealth then much of the Trans experience is no longer applicable. Once you’re living as a woman long enough, it’s hard to even recall how it felt before. I often wonder if I’m even mentally, emotionally and psychologically the same person. Hormones have their obvious physical effects, but I’ve come to believe they change our brains dramatically as well. The short answer is, you’ve arrived and should enjoy it!